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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

i made her angry.
just stubbornly deep in love with you
cuz my words din mean the way i wanted to speak.
dear dear. i don't like to make u angry or know that u are angry cuz of me
perhaps i just aint suitable to speak.
cuz it makes me feel really useless and disappointed.
i duno why.. my words seem to look like im giving excuses to you at times.. but truthfully i don't mean anything else. i just want to say how i feel.
i still nid to learn. really.. i don't how to behave with people nor to get close with them unless they wants to get close to me
im like in a world of my past of a real big big big kind of circle.. and u are the world out of it..
but i don't have all the time to get closer to you and let myself turn into the kind that will make u feel indefinite happiness yet
and when im out of it. i feel brighter happier and i wish that u will remain there for me to be part of my world..
but i nid time to do it. cuz this is me. im slow but i know what i want and i just want you.
(wanted to put a picture up but i can't seem to draw it out thanks to my ****ed up mouse)

i really love u.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:22 AM

Monday, October 26, 2009

time passed.

we got together better than we did..

over in taiwan!!

it was a really happy moment of my life..

for once i felt so touched on my birthday..

i cried.. and thinking back.. im still so touched.. its as if.. i really nv felt so wanted.. the sense of being alive... the value of my existance suddenly became.. of more of a value.. so much i would like to live to spend my time with u till the end of our days..

thou its just u and me..

i felt the true happiness..

thanks.. dear dear

i really appreciated the whole thing u planned out...

anything abt my birthday pictures just look over at my gf blog!! =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:40 PM

Thursday, October 01, 2009

sian. i duno whats with me today..

end of work seems like something i don't feel happy about. i just feel like.. i need to rest. im tired..

i want my taiwan trip..

im really. tired..

yawns..

(my brain can't seem to stop thinking..

keep on thinking of u.. *shy*)

dear dear.. 7 days left to countdown =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:25 PM

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

10 days b4 taiwan

hmmm.. im finding days hard to pass by.. 1 yr since army. its been tough for me. mentally..

wanted to chiong to do well and be physically fit. became unfit and mentally too..

and then i start to lose my path in what i want for the future.

but hmm... being with gf and staying at home are like the 2 things i can do well..

but i've come to notice this problem is getting to worsen.. which is if i have to say or convey a msg.. it aint goin anywhere.. which i mean like if i am trying to share a joke. its not coming out as anything funny.. it just simply goes into too theoretical which im like trying to explain what i am trying to mean or if i am trying to explain a use of something i become turning a big round trying to show how to do it but in the end it makes things worse.. =s

forget about it. if i can for when i am at home bah..

i just wanna relax. and wait for the trip to come le.

taiwan im coming~

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:58 PM

Friday, August 28, 2009

rather long since i blogged.. time to do something about it... haha =x

hmm... left less than 50 days to going to taiwan!!

just can't wait.

but no $$$

so have to wait for further income till goin there..

lately wondering..

am i a nice guy. or a bad guy... hmm.. maybe i should do something about this on my facebook for ppl to comment on..

but of cuz. try to say why too.. =)

well.. have been hectic lately..

sometimes. i still feel fear.. and real real bad fear.. esp today..

the indian aunty that casted fear into me again. haiz..

really fear indians.. big time..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:43 PM

Sunday, August 16, 2009

another day!!! 2 months to my birthday already... hmm.. doubt there will be anyone giving me a birthday celebrations thou..

but im fully -ok- with it.. im goin taiwan!!! =P

dreamt of taiwan trip last night.. it feels so real!!

im so prepared to have an enjoyable trip!!!

but.. im stuck of something... my gf parents aren't very supportive of the idea and have been giving black faces since then..

i understand the fact of if i am a parent i'll be worried.. but hmmm.. how can i convince them that i am a responsible person and won't be letting everything go to waste just like that..

as one thing.. her mum said...
u guys are the ones that will benefit everything and not lose everything...

but im thinking of this... can give me time to prove that im nt just any tom dick harry that do almost whatever all guys does?

im nt just any kinda person u can find on the street.. im different.. im a responsible person from top to toe.

dear dear. i hope u will understand that i am willing to spend my life with you.

i know u will too.. right? =)

lately u have been throwing some tantrums.. i know girls have this kinda times. but.. i'll be patient. and and.. when we have our own family.. a mummy cannot like tt one oh =) if nt the kids will think daddy and mummy nt lovey dovey anymore le ahz =( hehe.. =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:40 AM

Monday, August 03, 2009

baby~~ its been 1 year already!!

and for the first time.. i made a card for you!~ =)

and we had a wonderful time at the zoo!!

saw a lot of cute animals and fierce ones too.. =X it was a great time to spend a day there!!

thou i blogged a bit late.. cuz ytd i typed halfway got error again and i duno why the whole webpage went down =((

i had great time with dear dear all the while when i am with u.

even if i was unhappy or sad at any time.. i know that i have you with me to get pass my sad days.
and of cause!! its when u are with me that makes me happy too!!

dear dear.. i love you i love you i love you!!! i wanna work hard for our future!!
i know i have you for me!!

i know dear dear will be willing to do everything and anything for me!!

in return.. i'll give my best to you too!!

im lookin forward to the taiwan trip!! shall be two of us together overseas for 1st time!! can't wait already!!! XD

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:37 PM